Feeling Guilty and Fed Up

Over the past few days I have been feeling really fed up with feeling so sick all the time. I think it has got me down. I am pleased that I took a day off today to recharge my batteries a bit and to have more positive thoughts!

I have also been feeling guilty. I feel guilty about a few things. I feel guilty about leaving most things at home to Dan - incl. the vooking, washing, cleaning etc especially when he is busy at work and has other things going on. I feel like a burden.

I feel guilty about not giving my baby enough nutrition. I try and eat as much stuff as I possibly can (usually in the afternoons) but most of what I crave is not really healthy foods. I cant get enough of cheese and tomato sandwiches/ rolls but also love fizzy cans of pop and pick and mix sweets! I am trying to keep up intake of granny smith apples which again I cant get enough of. Last night Dan made us a vegetable stew type thing and it was great to eat most of it and more importantly to keep it all down.

I also feel guilty about work. I am only working afternoons at the moment but I feel guilty in the mornings when I am not there and for everything that Faye has to cover me for. I am really hoping to extend my working hours over the next week or so if the sickness will let me then I wont feel as guilty. So Faye if you are reading then thank you so much for everything you are doing to help me at the moment - I do really appreciate it.